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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #720 on: Sep 13, 2009, 09:28 AM »



Can it be? Six hundred days ago today,
I took you for granted, thinking you'd be here,
thinking loving you is enough, forever and a day.
Never would the thought of you, gone in a flash,
a wintry day that lasts longer than a year.

Only the memories of you remain, your warmth,
your smile, the force of your personality,
the depth of your soul, the light of your wisdom.
Remembering you is the only joy and comfort
that nourished me through the darkest hours.

Slowly, with each second of every passing day,
the pain imperceptibly fades, replaced by an emptiness
that reflects the fullness of what you gave.
Though the wintry season is replaced by spring, and
summer is followed by falling leaves,

The memories of you remain, forever and a day.
« Last Edit: Sep 18, 2009, 07:08 PM by lancecowboy »
Heath, you are loved, like this, always.

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #721 on: Sep 15, 2009, 01:50 PM »


If I ever forget you, I forget my soul with you
"And then the day came,
when the risk
to remain tight
in a bud
was more painful
than the risk
it took to blossom"

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #722 on: Sep 15, 2009, 02:40 PM »

You are always in my mind, always, beloved HL
It could be like this, always like this....
Sometimes I miss you so much, I can't understand it.

As you get old you begin to wonder-
what was all that lightning and thunder
actually about ? (Gavin Ewart)

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #723 on: Sep 15, 2009, 02:48 PM »
Say hello to Patrick for us xxx
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Heath, I swear ...

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #724 on: Sep 15, 2009, 03:09 PM »
Say hello to Patrick for us xxx

I have started a topic for Patrick (on life and leasure)  ^f^
It could be like this, always like this....
Sometimes I miss you so much, I can't understand it.

As you get old you begin to wonder-
what was all that lightning and thunder
actually about ? (Gavin Ewart)

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #725 on: Sep 15, 2009, 10:29 PM »
Say hello to Patrick for us xxx

They can dance to their heart's content :)

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #726 on: Sep 17, 2009, 11:24 AM »


"What Jack remembered and craved in a way he could neither help nor understand was the time that distant summer on Brokeback when Ennis had come up behind him and pulled him close,the silent embrace satisfying some shared and sexless hunger."
"I miss you so much I can hardly stand it."

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #727 on: Sep 21, 2009, 07:47 AM »

For a moment in our lives. Forever in our hearts.

"They were respectful of each other’s opinions, each glad to have a companion where none had been expected." ~ BBM Short Story

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #728 on: Sep 21, 2009, 08:34 AM »



Can it be? Six hundred days ago today,
I took you for granted, thinking you'd be here,
thinking loving you is enough, forever and a day.
Never would the thought of you, gone in a flash,
a wintry day that lasts longer than a year.

Only the memories of you remain, your warmth,
your smile, the force of your personality,
the depth of your soul, the light of your wisdom.
Remembering you is the only joy and comfort
that nourished me through the darkest hours.

Slowly, with each second of every passing day,
the pain imperceptibly fades, replaced by an emptiness
that reflects the fullness of what you gave.
Though the wintry season is replaced by spring, and
summer is followed by falling leaves,

The memories of you remain, forever and a day.


Each time I come to this thread I easily remember why it took me so long to come again... 

:_( :_( :_( :_( :_( :_( :_( :_( :_( :_( :_( :_(

Heath, dear, rest in peace!

« Last Edit: Sep 24, 2009, 03:18 PM by loreen »

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #729 on: Sep 22, 2009, 10:30 AM »


You are always on my mind.


The truth is... sometimes I miss you so much I can hardly stand it.

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #730 on: Sep 24, 2009, 01:33 AM »
”It is said some lives are linked across time. Connected by an ancient calling that echoes through the ages. Destiny.”

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"Jack, I swear -"  he said, though Jack had never asked him to swear anything and was himself not the swearing kind.

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #731 on: Sep 24, 2009, 03:10 PM »










The emptiness is a reminder of the love you inspired in me.

Do I fill it with imitation of you,
    just to rid the pain of missing you?
Do I hide it under a pretense of stoic solitude,
    just to keep the tears from bubbling out?

I would rather cherish the dull aching pain,
    and nurse it like a candle on the window sill,
because it is the light that points my way home.

I would sooner embrace it,
     like the silken fabric that is life itself, fragile and torn
embroidered with the golden threads that was the joy of you.

The joy of the emptiness of missing you
     is the flame that brands my soul with memories of you.

« Last Edit: Oct 26, 2009, 12:09 AM by lancecowboy »
Heath, you are loved, like this, always.

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #732 on: Oct 22, 2009, 02:53 AM »

21 months but still alive in our hearts
It could be like this, always like this....
Sometimes I miss you so much, I can't understand it.

As you get old you begin to wonder-
what was all that lightning and thunder
actually about ? (Gavin Ewart)

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #733 on: Oct 22, 2009, 03:06 AM »
The 22th day of the month is forever burned in my heart.

"What Jack remembered and craved in a way he could neither help nor understand was the time that distant summer on Brokeback when Ennis had come up behind him and pulled him close,the silent embrace satisfying some shared and sexless hunger."
"I miss you so much I can hardly stand it."

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #734 on: Oct 22, 2009, 03:25 AM »
”It is said some lives are linked across time. Connected by an ancient calling that echoes through the ages. Destiny.”

Prince of Persia
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"Jack, I swear -"  he said, though Jack had never asked him to swear anything and was himself not the swearing kind.

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #735 on: Oct 22, 2009, 09:13 AM »

The truth is... sometimes I miss you so much I can hardly stand it.

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #736 on: Oct 22, 2009, 11:34 AM »


IN A DAY LIKE TODAY,21 MONTHS AGO,YOU WENT AWAY,BUT ONLY FROM THIS WORLD.BECAUSE FROM THIS VERY MOMENT,YOU'LL STAY FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS.
Ennis’s eyes gone bright with shock, mouth opening then closing again. “Love?” Ennis said finally, voice strangling in his throat.

Jack smiled sad. “Yeah, Ennis. Love.” Leaned forward and kissed Ennis’s temple, whispered, “What’d you think it was, all this time?”
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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #737 on: Oct 23, 2009, 12:05 AM »







Your light shines forever
Love you, always

Heath, you are loved, like this, always.

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #738 on: Oct 23, 2009, 09:21 AM »







Your light shines forever
Love you, always


Heath, I quote these lovely and meaningful words from dear Andrew, as he's said it perfectly again. 

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #739 on: Oct 23, 2009, 09:25 AM »



Can it be? Six hundred days ago today,
I took you for granted, thinking you'd be here,
thinking loving you is enough, forever and a day.
Never would the thought of you, gone in a flash,
a wintry day that lasts longer than a year.

Only the memories of you remain, your warmth,
your smile, the force of your personality,
the depth of your soul, the light of your wisdom.
Remembering you is the only joy and comfort
that nourished me through the darkest hours.

Slowly, with each second of every passing day,
the pain imperceptibly fades, replaced by an emptiness
that reflects the fullness of what you gave.
Though the wintry season is replaced by spring, and
summer is followed by falling leaves,

The memories of you remain, forever and a day.

OMG....   :_(

Beautiful, sad, true.

Replaced by an emptiness that reflects the fullness of what you gave

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #740 on: Oct 25, 2009, 11:55 PM »




Though that wintry day denuded life's foliage of your green shoots
My heart can still feel the warmth of your smile
the light of your laughter
the joy of your spirit
of you.

Though waiting for that springtime of your return
may wear out a life or two, I hold steadfast
the hope of future memories with you
the love of being filled once more
with your warmth and joy,
with the sight of you,
worth the wait.
« Last Edit: Oct 26, 2009, 12:07 AM by lancecowboy »
Heath, you are loved, like this, always.

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #741 on: Oct 26, 2009, 08:10 AM »




Though that wintry day denuded life's foliage of your green shoots
My heart can still feel the warmth of your smile
the light of your laughter
the joy of your spirit
of you.


Though waiting for that springtime of your return
may wear out a life or two, I hold steadfast
the hope of future memories with you
the love of being filled once more
with your warmth and joy,
with the sight of you,
worth the wait.


Mine can, too...definitely. 

This is beautiful, as always, Andrew bud.  It could just as easily have been written for a further-down-the-track Ennis, with Jack in mind, I do think.  Once some time had passed, and a lot of guilt had evaporated.

Your poems and prose always seem to work on many levels, and definitely are a balm to the hearts of we who love and miss Heath.  Thank you.   :ghug:

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #742 on: Nov 05, 2009, 08:17 PM »


You've changed things. Forever. There's no going back.

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #743 on: Nov 21, 2009, 03:35 PM »



Has it been, almost two years?
Does time still have meaning?
When the first stabs of pain fade
And the continual ache persists
When the emptiness of missing you
Mixed with the joy of remembering
Time runs together from day to day
from the new Moon to the full
A New Year may seem like new
But it is the same old one, without you
« Last Edit: Nov 30, 2009, 09:58 PM by lancecowboy »
Heath, you are loved, like this, always.

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #744 on: Nov 22, 2009, 09:30 AM »

The truth is... sometimes I miss you so much I can hardly stand it.

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #745 on: Nov 22, 2009, 05:23 PM »
Ennis’s eyes gone bright with shock, mouth opening then closing again. “Love?” Ennis said finally, voice strangling in his throat.

Jack smiled sad. “Yeah, Ennis. Love.” Leaned forward and kissed Ennis’s temple, whispered, “What’d you think it was, all this time?”
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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #746 on: Nov 22, 2009, 08:48 PM »



forever in our hearts

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #747 on: Nov 30, 2009, 05:40 PM »

 :_( :_( :_( :_( :_( :_( :_( :_(

I've had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why

And I can't take it
It wasn't fake it
It happened you passed by

Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back

Now you're gone
Now you're gone
There you go
There you go
Somewhere you're not coming back

The day, you, slipped away
Was the day, I found it won't the same
No
The day, you, slipped away
Was the day, I found it won't be the same
Oh

Na na
Na na na na na

I miss you

-Slipped Away by: Avril Lavigne
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I love you, sweet Cowboy Heath!!!
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« Last Edit: Nov 30, 2009, 07:33 PM by Ennis/Jack4eva »
'Cause I don't want to say goodbye
Let the stars shine through
No, I don't want to say goodbye
All I want to do is live with you

Together, our two hearts are strong
Don't you know that's where our hearts both belong?

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #748 on: Dec 13, 2009, 09:32 AM »




Heath, you are loved, like this, always.

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Re: Vigil for Heath - light a candle
« Reply #749 on: Dec 22, 2009, 01:51 AM »



700 Days or 23 Months
Whatever the measure to quantify the days gone empty without you
The quality of the time missing you remains the same

The few works you created
The limited roles you played
They stand as a legacy that future generations will recognize as sublime

What you inspired in men's souls
What you stirred in women's hearts
Are the footprints of your brief sojourn here

Wherever you are, Heath Andrew Ledger
May your paths be guided by angels
May you be surrounded by the warmth of love sent your way, always.
« Last Edit: Dec 22, 2009, 12:36 PM by lancecowboy »
Heath, you are loved, like this, always.